My battle with Anorexia began when I was 15, as I had convinced myself that in order to be happy, I had to strive to be unhealthily thin. For me, my eating disorder gave me an immense sense of control in my impossibly chaotic life and helped me to avoid all the pain and sadness that I simply did not know how to deal with at the time. I am now learning that all emotions – positive and negative – are a natural part of life, and that sadness only makes happiness all the more beautiful.
I have often felt like I lost far too much to my Anorexia, as it left me feeling isolated and alone for so long. I have spent the last few years blindsided to how much love and support surrounds me, so I have chosen to name each piece of jewellery I make after someone who has helped me on my journey to recovery.
My recovery has been quite the rollercoaster, and at times often felt forced and false. It is only now that I finally feel like I am taking control of my own recovery and making the active choice to try and beat my illness. Coming to the Sweet Cavanagh support groups is the first step I have made on my own towards a healthier, happier life.